Unable.

I'm unable to get my head around something my mom told me tonight. I cannot disclose what it is, because she was embarrassed and I have to respect it. Regardless. I never considered it a possibility that my mom did something like this. You think you know someone and then BAM.... something like this happens.

Don't get me wrong, I love my mom. She's my mom. But... at the same time I'm kinda wondering what else she's waited 23 years to tell me. It was a shock, not because of the actual 'thing', but because it was HER. She's so ultra conservative that it was the last thing I could have expected from her. As her daughter.... I'm having issues with it. I told her that I didn't care.... and I don't. It's just difficult to deal with and accept as fact. Its almost like the last 23 years was a lie. Ugh. I'm being dramatic, I know.... but still... it feels weird!!!

At this point in my mom and my relationship, I feel like its time for me to reveal the other 5 tattoos she doesn't know about. I've been hiding them from her for a year... not because I'm embarrassed of them, because if you know me... you know I LOVE my tattoos. More along the lines of... I was always afraid of her reaction... based on her reaction about the first 4. She wasn't exactly excited or supportive. But I feel that if she can open up and tell me something that was hard for her, that she should be able to accept me. She came to me with an expectation that I wouldn't flip out and that I would still love her. And I would expect no less from her. Yes... what I did is different. I got body art where you can see it all the time practically... but what she did wasn't exactly tiny in comparison.

Oy. What to do!!!!